Another year for me to get older.

After a whole day of class, getting back to hostel, finish an Amway's talk, get back to my bed again and i fall asleep as usual on the day before my birthday. Of course i left my phone charging on my desk and turned off my data for sure. I was awake by a dream and i can't even remember what it is now!! (That's a sign of getting old right? Sad case Sob sob~~)

It was 5.55am in the very morning, i turned on my data to see whether or not he reply my message, suddenly a Facebook Messenger pop up!
Elvin Pocoyo:" Happy Birthday Choo."
Hwei Khing in wechat:"Happy birthday CHOO, All the best in your study!"
To be frank, i was really shocked! The mindset of not having birthday celebration was ingrained since I step into my college.

What happened next was... ... What do u think it is? Yes, I cried. I DID CRIED!! A sudden thought of someone reminding me I still have some friend that really know me, there are still some friend from Kelantan are still concerning me. Honestly, I manage to make some friends over here,but my FRIENDS is only up to school, it ends when i back to my hostel! SERIOUSLY!! Although I have lots of friends where i know during orientation week and my class, I felt an empty friendship where people are not really connected when they're apart. I don't know how to explain this situation, but it really made me felt lonely. I'M REALLY LONELY but a lot of them think was like I am joking.

I was all the way from Kelantan, i'm the only one who know myself very very well when my dad left me off in Penang and it is my first time to drive 200km++ distance and stay out there for more than 1 month. I missed my friends for sure.

After settle my house work, i prepared myself to wait Jing Han to fetch me to a BBQ party where no intention of celebration for my birthday, everything was just an coincident where this gathering falls on my birthday. We eat, we sing, we play, we high, we kiss and finally they smash a cake on my face =.="

After swimming and get up from the pool, a tiring feel was brought across my mind, and they sang Birthday Song and i was really really astonished!! I never never think there will be a cake for me from them since i came here only for about 1 month, ya as what predicted they smashed the cake on my cake! xD

CM Lee Lai Jian, Don't be worry la, i'm not angry on you. Tak sempat love you how can hate you? xD
But at the end, thanks for the cake thanks for the ride and thanks for the first memory in Penang! You guys are the best!! Muacks~~

A new life of mine.

My desk and all my stuff

My bed, 2 beds are available, if u wanna come u may. xD

My cute cute little towel.

3/5/2014
My dad drove me up from Kelantan to Penang with companion of his friend since my mother is not able to come over together with us. We departed at 4.30am and reached Pg via ferry from Raja Uda about 11am, as we arrived, I've waiting my host to come over from Georgetown to Tanjung Bungah that make it quite a distance. Landed everything from my car, bed, wardrobe, detergent, luggage and all my stuffs and we had been waiting for 2 hours as my host was in a traffic jam. Terry arrived after all when we started to move in, he brought us for lunch nearby to my hostel. 2pm, my dad then leave Penang, I've started my lonely life here.

My first Activity in Penang for Tzu Chi

4/5/2014
After awake from Terry's bed, we walk out for our breakfast. Everything was so different when compare with what i had experienced in Penang before this, especially the change in environment and mood. I was all the way from Kelantan, no friend with around me, things in my room was the closest things with me in Penang. I was talking alone, doing some internet surfing and last i need to arrange all my thing in order to make my room tidy. At this very day, my first Tzu Chi in Penang, introduction of Buddha's bathing ceremony that will be held at 11/5/2014. After all, i slept at 11pm.

5/5/2014

Free gift from TARUC

College main hall

As the day, this is my college commencement day. I was so nervous and started to walk to college with my housemate around. I saw a lot of HUMAN surrounding me, suddenly a guy approached me and ask me to walk to DKA as to collect our shirt. We had been summoned into the main hall of TARUC.
My first impression: Woah, college. xD
Ya, it's as simple as that. Yea, i'm in college now, finally! After my form 6 education, everything was so strange to me. As the song rose, the emcee began to speak and after several boring shows, the emcee's attitude was changed!! They started to become more and more energetic and a bunch of Student Leader ran into the hall with their own flag and we were allocated into 39 groups if i'm not mistaken. The day end with the some-how camp where we call it ORIENTATION =.="

12/5/2014
Yes, as you know, we started our classes one week right after the orientation. I missed my class during my third day!! Shit, it was really shit!! MPU, where the attendance is concern about!! OMG~~~
Waling alone to school, walking alone into study room, sitting alone in lecture hall, and sitting alone in tutorial class!! Why everything are alone??!!

Yes, as what i said before: I will survive until the very very last!! Love u guys~~~

My rapid penang one month pass

炸雞的一段記憶

只能像九把刀說的一樣，人生就是不停的戰鬥！

6年前，我們就因為我被很多人排斥而造就了他跟我的友好，但這友好始終敵不過一個小女生。

我們曾經很好，真的很好，周遭的人都以為我們兩個是情侶。每當被誤會時，他都會直接斬斷別人對我們的誤會但其實我心裡一直在偷笑。這幾年都有在跟他開玩笑的說喜歡他，雖然說是開玩笑但其實心裡不只是多麼的認真。但我不覺得我們會在一起，畢竟我知道他也有他喜歡的人而他喜歡的人也那麼巧是我好朋友，5年的戰友！真的對他不敢有任何的遐想。前一陣子開始執行吃素計劃的我，有幾度很想吃肉，也把自己的感受po在臉書上這時他就會過來說：“走，去吃炸雞！” 也會跟我說：“CANNOT!!” 讓我真的感到很窩心啦～

直到最近一位小女生的出現導致了他漸漸傾向於她，小女生的要求百求必應，甚至於我們倆的約會還被他利用成為小女生逃學的幫兇！而且還是他要求我帶那一位小女生一起，就這樣他成了我們的電燈泡，哦不，應該是我成了他們的電燈泡=.="

最離譜的是他不知發生了什麼事會到吉隆坡後就完全不理我了，最後還unfriend我。幹！這是怎麼一回事？我做錯了什麼？我到底是怎樣？你也知道我的個性，都已經習慣了那麼多年怎麼突然間會不習慣呢？到底是怎樣？我什麼都不知道，我只知道的是我失去了一位很關心我的人，很關心很關心我的一個人。

"nevermind I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best to you too. Don't forget me, I'll beg I'll remember u said. Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."

只希望你會幸福，只希望你會懂得什麼叫友誼，只希望你可以分辨是非黑白。
只希望你還會繼續叫我吃炸雞。畢竟我們倆個都是男的

#MH370墜機事件【3/8/2014】

人生最難的的就是有一個跟自己同在的家庭，跟自己並肩作戰、面對一切的家庭。

政府『草菅人命』的行為是無法被原諒的，每一個生命都有自己的家庭 每一個生命都有他背負的重任。為了一己私慾就間接性的殺害了那麼多的人 該當何罪？

試想想墜機的那一刻每位遇難者心裡在想什麼？

“發生了什麼事？”
“我不想死！”
“我還有很多事還沒完成啊！”
“我的家人， 你  在  哪  裡？”

只能說，你就認錯吧！
還遇難者家屬們一個公正合理的交待吧！

我的傷口很痛啊～～

四年前的傷，第一次跌摩托也見證了我初戀的開始。
傷口的疤痕依然還在，每看一次就讓我想起他對我的第一次。
10月29號。

塞翁失馬 焉知非福

我只都跟自己說，我們人就是為了美好的東西而繼續活下去的，但在享受到“美好”前必定有許多失敗的東西，但要忍下去，一定要忍下去。

最近失去了一個朋友，但至少讓我換來的是一個懂得欣賞我的人。一路來都沒人欣賞我，覺得我是怪胎，覺得我的思考邏輯跟別人不同，甚至覺得我做事的方式不好。這一切都不重要了，我遇到了他。

希望這可以繼續保持下去～
（寫的有點敷衍我知道 >.<

『友』&『愛』

經過了這漫長一個月半的假期，我終於發現到友情和愛情是不可能同時存在的。不可能！
有了其中一項，另一項就必須得犧牲。這是千真萬確的，而我就是在這過程當中。

所謂的犧牲可能不是犧牲掉友情那麼殘忍啦，只是你會發現到自己的朋友對自己比以前冷淡得多，不只是冷淡喔！而是冷淡得多！

那人會突然間不在你身邊（但平時他就只會死粘著你）
那人會突然間很敷衍的回复你（平時都寫得啰哩叭嗦）
那人會突然間無視你的存在（只要你不找他他就不會來找你）
=.="

誒，我不是想要理就理，不理就不理的好嗎？我也有feeling, 有時稍微尊重我好嗎？
色字頭上一把刀啊朋友！